February 24th, 2008
|06:29 pm - RANDOM THOUGHTS OF THE MOMENT|
“Razors pain you; rivers are damp; acids stain you; and drugs cause cramp. Guns aren't lawful; nooses give; gas smells awful; you might as well live.”
Fitter, happier, more productive,
not drinking too much,
regular exercise at the gym
(3 days a week),
getting on better with your associate employee contemporaries,
(no more microwave dinners and saturated fats),
a patient better driver,
a safer car
(baby smiling in back seat),
(no bad dreams),
careful to all animals
(never washing spiders down the plughole),
keep in contact with old friends
(enjoy a drink now and then),
will frequently check credit at (moral) bank (hole in the wall),
favors for favors,
fond but not in love,
charity standing orders,
on Sundays ring road supermarket
(no killing moths or putting boiling water on the ants),
(also on Sundays),
no longer afraid of the dark or midday shadows
nothing so ridiculously teenage and desperate,
nothing so childish - at a better pace,
slower and more calculated,
no chance of escape,
concerned (but powerless),
an empowered and informed member of society
(pragmatism not idealism),
will not cry in public,
less chance of illness,
tires that grip in the wet
(shot of baby strapped in back seat),
a good memory,
still cries at a good film,
still kisses with saliva,
no longer empty and frantic like a cat tied to a stick,
that's driven into frozen winter shit
(the ability to laugh at weakness),
healthier and more productive
a pig in a cage on antibiotics.
Have you ever confused a dream with life,
Or stolen something when you have the cash?
Have you ever been blue,
Or thought your train moving when sitting still?
I can't explain how the laws of physics can be suspended.
That what goes up may not come down.
Explain that time can move backwards and forwards, and now to then, and back again, and you can't control it.
Was I ever crazy? Maybe, or maybe life is.
Crazy isnt being broken or swalloing a dark secret.
Its you or me amplified.
If you ever told a lie and enjoyed it.
If you ever wished you could be a child forever.
They were not perfect but they were my friends.
Some I've seen, and some never again,
But there isn't a day my heart doesnt find them!
Current Mood: thoughtful
Current Music: RADIOHEAD
December 27th, 2007
|02:21 am - DIFFERENT, DIFFERENT, DIFFERENT!!!!|
What is my problem?
Ever since this Christmas break, I have realized that I just don't belong with my family. I am so artistic, unique, and GAY!!!! I go home and no one understands that the things I have done are very impressive and awesome.
Being in a company outside of school, or getting cast in dances don't mean a thing to them, they just say good job and that is about it. I just feel like my parents care more about me getting "A DEGREE", and not getting a REAL job/having a successful career.
I really truly plan on quiting school after this semester, and taking the summer to take a summer intensive, and audition around New York, and then take the rest of the summer to audition in Chicago. that is my "NEW PLAN"!!
Talk to you soon!
Current Mood: drained
Current Music: Radiohead- "Fitter Happier"
October 1st, 2006
|06:17 pm - Hey!|
Well it has been a while since my last update, and alot has happened since then.
Classes are okay. Anatomy and Physiology is already kicking my ass, and killing me. I am just hoping I make it through with a "C", and I swear I will be completely happy and surprised. LOL! Dance classes are going really well. I am in LOVE with Ballet 3 and Dance Improvisation. I am a little nervous about Stage Production, which I don't do anything until November.
I got cast in the Faculty Dance Concert, YEAH! I am in 3 pieces, Hazels', Mary Lynns', and Shelleys'. So two Modern pieces, and one Contemporary Ballet piece. I am also going to be in Daybreak again this semester. I am going to be in two pieces, and they are both duets. I was asked by one of my Dance friends to be her partner for the North Texas Dancers, which is our Dance Team at school. They are performing at our next games Halftime show, and it has partnering stuff, so she asked if I would do it with her. It is really easy, fun, and I am excited to perform in front of my school at a football game. HAHA! I am still rehearsing with the Muscle Memory Dance Theater Company, for the piece I am in with them, which I am really excited about. It is a Modern Dance Company that was started by two of my old teachers, who are AMAZING! So Dance life outside of classes are going VERY well, but I am always really busy. I actually am going to be rehearsing everyday of the week, starting next week. LOL!
Love life is actually progressing, but I am not really sure what is going to happen with it. I don't want to jinx it or anything, but to say the least I am excited. HAHA!
I really don't know what else to say. That is about all that is going on in my life right now. I hope this wasn't too boring. I am sure I will update soon with the latest going on in my life, or if something really amazing happens.
Till Next Time!
Current Mood: content
August 31st, 2006
|05:20 pm - Hey Everyone!|
Well school has begun. I am now living in my new apartment with Barbara and Jessica. I am absolutely loving it. I am so excited for this year.
So let me see what has been happening.......
So the week before school started, I got a call from my Jazz teacher last semester, and she invited me to join her new company and perform in their new dance. Last weekend we rehearsed 5 hours for 3 days, and learned the whole dance from the choreographer who is from Oklahoma!! HAHA! It is alot of fun. It is the most intense Modern dance I have EVER done. I love it alot!!!
Classes are okay. HAHA! Anatomy and Phisiology 1 is going to be the hardest class I will ever take for my major! I still have to take A & P 2, after this class. HAHA! I am going to try and get through it. College Algebra is going to be hell, but I will make it through. I love my Dance Improvisation class so much. It is going to be amazing, that is all I can say. HAHA! Stage Production is going to be a bitch, but I have to just get through it, because I need 4 semesters of it. Modern 1 is going to suck, I already know. HAHA! I have decided to just try and get through it, and deal. ballet 3 is AMAZING!!!! I love Hazel so F-ing much! HAHA! I am going to love it so much. I can't wait!
Auditions for the Faculty Dance Concert in February, are this Wednesday. I am not nervous, I just hope I get into a piece. LOL! We shall see! I also was asked by Katie, a dance friend of mine, to be her partner for a dance that she is performing with the NT Dancers. I get to perform at a football game. HAHA! I have only seen one game, and it was my Senior year of High School. HAHA! It will be fun.
Well I think that is about all. I have to go and study for A&P, and pray I make through this class with a "C". I promise I will try and update soon!
Talk to you soon!
Current Location: Home!
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: The Color Purple (2005 Original Broadway Cast Recording)
June 9th, 2006
|04:21 pm - HEY!|
So I moved into my house on Wednesday, with 3 of my 4 roomates. Eric, is coming on the 15th, and then the 5 of us will all be together. It is a two story house, with 1 1/2 bathrooms, and 4 bedrooms. It is REALLY REALLY old, but is a "work in progress", as I like to call it. It is over 90 years old, and the man that lived in it last was Bi-Polar, and would break things, and put holes in walls. HAHAHA! So where there was damage, is now "packaging tape", HAHA, to keep it together. LOL!
To be honest I love the house. It is perfect to me. My room is nice. I have a big closet with no curtain rod, and it is too long to find one that fits, so I am living out of my suitcases, which is cool. I have a window A/C unit, that keeps my room cold, since we have no A/C. My room has a door that leads to a sun room, which is nice, and I also have a door that leads to our HUGE attic. We finally got silverware, a coffee maker, plates, cups, and all the essenials donated to us, by the Eichlberger and people. It honestly is a new adventure. We still don't have a microwave, but sooner or later we will get one.
I am so glad it is the weekend, and I get to relax. "Camelot" doesn't rehearse on Fridays, and the capms haven't started, so I don't have to go to work on Fridays, but I am still doing work her at the house, just to get shit done. Our house is a two minute walk from the Theatre, so that is nice. They have a 15 passanger van that they let us use, so I can go run errands, and get food, and stuff.
Hanover is VERY small, so there isn't much to do. Tonight I am going with my roomates: Anna Ebbessen, Aimee Beyers, and Michael Anthony Rose to see the movie, "The Break Up". I have been wanting to see it, and I can't wait.
Overall I am doing good. I've begun to read all kinds of books lately, and I think I am going to start a journal. I don't know! I am trying to take this experience as far as I can. I want to learn, live, and gain more knowledge as a performer/artist/person. LOL! Now I am beginning to sound all Philosophical, and kind of creepy! HAHA!
Well yeah that is about all that is going on here!
How is everyone doing? How is your summer going?
Talk to you soon!
Current Mood: peaceful
Current Music: Radiohead
February 28th, 2006
|04:41 pm - HEY!|
Hey Everyone! I know it has been a while, I am really sorry. If and when I have any free time, it is usually spent just lying on my bed, trying to rest my body. HAHAHA!
Classes are going well. I can't wait for Spring Break! I get to go to Austin and compete, take master classes, and watch performances. It is going to be so much fun. AH!!!!
The Faculty Dance Concert went very well. It was a huge success, and I congratulate everyone involved.
I went home this past weekend and visited my family for my Fathers 40th birthday. LOL! It was alot of, and I got alot of much needed stuff for school, and dance.
Rehearsals are going well for both Krista and Annie's pieces. I am having alot of fun working with everyone, and enjoying the experience. I am also doing well in Leslie's Daybreak piece.
Honestly my life isn't really consisting of much. I go to Dance classes and regular classes, then to the gym, then to rehearsals, then homework, then rest the body. Then I wake up the next morning and do it all over again.
I guess that is about all! I am sorry for anyone who was completely bored at the end of this. HAHA!
I will update soon, hopefully!
Talk to you soon!
February 4th, 2006
|10:07 pm - Hey!|
Hey Everyone! Sorry, I know it has been a while. I have just been so busy with everything going on at school, that I haven't had time to much of anything.
This is the final weekend of Mansfield's "Bye Bye Birdie", and I am really sad that it is all over. I went and saw it last Saturday, and I plan on seeing it tomorrow. I had so much fun, and they all did such a great job!
I'm still rehearsing for the Faculty Concert, which goes up February 17th, 18th, and 19th. It is alot of fun to be working with such a great group of girls. There are 9 girls and myself. HAHA! I am really excited, because we are going to be performing on the big stage, and we get really fun costumes.
Auditions for the "New Choreographer's Concert" went really well. I got into two pieces, Annie's and Krista's. I am so excited to work with Annie. Rehearsal's have already begun, and it is so exciting. McKenzie is in the piece with me. I also can't wait to work with Krista again, she is so much fun to be around. This time we actually have a lot of time to rehearse, we get our costumes made for us, and we get to perform on the big stage. I SERIOUSLY can't wait.
I am also in Leslie's dance piece for the Spring Daybreak. We just started, but I am already excited about it. I also have joined his new company, which isn't really anything yet but it will be within the next year. I can't wait!!!
Classes are going well. I am dancing all of the time, which is fun, yet tiring. My english and communication classes are going well. I am still going to the Rec Center as often as I can, taking Yoga, Jazz, and Hip Hop classes, and of course, WORKING OUT! HAHA!
Well I think that is about all that is going on right now. If you read this entire entry, I apologize if you are bored. Not much goes on in Denton.
I promise this time, that I will update sooner.
Till Next Time!
Current Mood: tired
January 13th, 2006
|07:39 pm - HEY!|
Okay! So I am back at UNT, and I am avoiding the whole unpacking stuff, and getting settled process, and have decided to update instead. HAHA!
I had alot of fun in League City. I got to see alot of people I missed, and get caught up on alot of stuff. I got in a car wreck, and had to get the car fixed. That was no fun. I bought alot of Sitcoms on DVD, and watched them while I was home.
Tomorrow is my last day to choreograph at Mansfield High School, and then it goes up in two weeks. I am so excited to see the whole sha-bang. It is going to be so good!
I finally got the final word on the summer job in Pennsylvania, and it is so exciting. I honestly can't wait to get started. I will get to go to New York on the weekend, and do whatever I want. I am so excited!!!
Classes start on Tuesday, and I am actually excited. I am taking 6 dance classes, English 2, and Intro. to Comm.! I am ready to begin.
Today I got a call form one of the teachers here, and she asked if I would be in her dance piece, and I said of course. After I hung up, I got changed and went to my first rehearsal, and I had alot of fun. I get to go to ACDF, which is this competition, where three states dance at this big convention thing. It is going to be alot of fun, but the only bad thing is, it over my SPRING BREAK! So instead of going home, I will be in a hotel somewhere, taking master classes, and competing. It is going to be alot of fun.
Auditions for the rest of the Spring Show are coming soon. They already cast the faculty dances, which I am in, and then they have the student dance auditions, which is what I can't wait for.
And to top it all off, I am definitely getting an apartment for next year, and will be living with Barbara and Jessica. I am so excited!
Well that is about all that is going on in my life right now. I promise to update soon.
Till Next Time!
Current Mood: content
Current Music: "I Could Write Books" from Zanna Don't!
January 3rd, 2006
|08:15 pm - HEY!|
Well I am still here at home in the LC, and I am kind of ready to get back. I am really looking forward to starting the next semester, and seeing all of my friends again.
I haven't really been doing much while I have been here. I go to class, and hang out, I saw some movies. I got my TV shows on DVD delivered, and have been watching them like crazy.
I am for sure taking the job in Pennsylvania this summer, and I honestly can't wait!
Love life is going somewhere and nowhere at the same time.
Well that is about all!
Current Mood: bored
December 10th, 2005
|11:17 am - YAY!|
So there is this boy!
Current Mood: loved